i dunno

I don't have any intention to get your attention, but i just don't know for the couple of days i felt so melancholy and antahhhhh it just i feel "seribu satu rasa" in a way.

On the bright side, maybe i have nothing much to do at home that i let myself drown into "unwanted" feeling. SubhanAllah, tolonglah hambaMu ini, singkirkanlah hati yang gundah ini, Ya Rabb.

NO..no it isn't right to let syaitan wins and membisikkan kata-kata yang merosakkan akidah diriku. It is true, every single seconds syaitan akan mengambil kesempatan untuk melalaikan anak-anak Adam. Syaitan akan mencucuk & membisikkan kata-kata yang boleh membuatkan diri kita hanyut didalam angan-angan dan mengakibatkan anak adam terpesong dari jalan-Nya.

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah hambaMu yang kerdil ini.

I was reviewing my last year posts and i laughed at those photos of mine. Sesungguhnya aku didalam keadaan "zaman Jahiliyah". Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa hambaMU.

now, i admit. when u feel lonely(especially when you are at the "ABC" period) and u tend to think & do useless things such as Facebook-ing over and over again, sleeping at whatever times u want, thinking of someone u admire, listening to any kind of songs apart from Nasyid/ayat-ayat Al-Quran, doing nothing and unproductive. ahhh...that was soooo me!

I am finally fight those back! Alhamdulillah.

And now i am thinking, why didn't i just browsed over the informative website & read more about Islam? so shame of me. now readers, u read my confession. i always on facebook and facebook. useless~

Starting from now, i have to fill my times with useful things to do instead facebook-ing saja. I know it is an excuse when i have the period times but why i couldn't simply read a book that more informative?? browse through the internet and baca all the dakwah info??? ahh....i missed a lot precious times.

"Dialah yang menurunkan ketenangan ke dalam hati orang-orang mukmin untuk menambah keimanan atas keimanan mereka (yang telah ada). Dan milik Allah-lah bala tentera langit dan bumi. dan Allah mengetahui lagi maha bijaksana." -(48:4)

When the heart empty & lonely, mintalah kepadaNya untuk meminta ketenangan.

Yes, it is true. whatever u heart feels now, Allah is the best whom we can ask for , complain and stuff.

Eventhough my heart and your heart feel empty without a name called "love/cinta from boyfriend.girlfriend", the best is to fill my heart and your heart with Allah's love.

A friend of mine said "Learn and Love Allah more before you can love someone". MashaAllah that is a very nice phrase. Jazakillah to her. :)

I was struggling myself to let the past flow away with times. And Alhamdulillah, i made it. Eventhough sometimes, i think of yang inda berguna i know...those are bisikkan syaitan semata-mata.

Allahuaklam.

Allahuakbar. I am off now, need hit the sack.

Assalamualaikum.

p/s: i miss my akhowats & other ukhtis. :(